This Way

I'm smiling all the time
It proves that I'm okay
That's what people think
But It's not always that way

I'll smile when I'm sad
I'll smile instead of crying
I'll smile so you think I'm fine
Even when I think of dying

I had to pretend for you
Almost everyday
It had really become a routine
It just had to be that way

How would you have felt
If I had dropped that fake smile?
And told you that I haven't
Really felt right in awhile

How would you have felt
If you saw all my invisible cuts?
I know if I tore them all open
You'd look at me like I was nuts

Before I come to this decision
Of parting ways and pretends,
This is how I would have felt
And left this poems unrightful end:

"So I'll smile for you
And act like I'm okay
It's become a daily thing
And it'll always be this way"

But no, I'm done
I cant hurt anymore
I'm hurting you now
And forever more-

I'll stop pretending smiles for you
I'll stop acting like I'm okay
Although it's become a daily routine
I'm ending it now, It has to be this way.